Dont stop.

Okay, it gets serious when in a conversation, i'm the one saying, "You have to believe in love!" I was having a conversation with a guy and he told me of how his girlfriend hurt him and basically smashed his heart into a million tiny pieces. Now, he absolutely does not believe in love and its sad and frightening. Apparently, he's seeing someone and its serious on her part but not on his; He says, its so whenever she feels the need to walk away, it doesn't affect him.
This is bad, because at some point we've all had our hearts broken, is this how we all respond to heartbreak? If its the way we feel, little wonder relationships are always breaking up and married people are getting divorces. The world is becoming a vicious cycle of people who in their desperate need to protect themselves from heartache end up hurting people who in turn hurt other people.
Due to the fear of heartbreak, we've locked away the part of us that gives a hundred per cent, we no longer trust, we dont let ourselves really get into it. How on earth are relationships supposed to work when either one party is giving less than they should or in some cases, both parties arent giving as they ought to?
I know it hurts bad when your heart gets broken, but we can't risk not feeling the real thing because we've been hurt before. If you've ever been in an accident, that doesn't mean you dont get in a car again. You get in a car, you drive and you do it carefully. The point is, you drive.
Please, we have to take a chance, we cant afford to not take a chance on finding love. I have to believe that if we hold on long enough, we'll find the love that only the poets can fully describe. We cannot stop believing, i cannot stop believing, and you cant either. Dont ever stop.

I did not write this oh!

I swear, i had forgotten what it was like to have to wake up every morning to go to work. Its just past 2pm and i'm exhausted, i just travelled the lenght of lagos for a meeting which went quite well but my head is banging too hard and making such a fuss it doesnt appreciate it!
The weekend was fun, spent it with my friend, watched a bit of Spartacus, drank a lot of wine and of course, whats the weekend without a bit of gossip:) Catching up on what everyone else is doing and analyzing our expectations for the future.
Now, has anyone been seeing Spartacus? OMG! its more than a little risque for my taste and a bit too bloody. The storyline is as usual, man searches for the love of his life killing any and all in his path but loses her eventually and this changes him( think gladiator). Lots of blood, testosterone and rage(think 300). Lots of sex(think pornography). Like i said, a bit too much for me but it served as a means to pass time; as we marvelled at the decadence that gripped Rome in those days, thats if the potrayal in the series has any truth to it. Just be sure you dont ever see it with little kids or teenagers, and if you want to cause alarm, shock and hyperventilation, show it to your mother. If you're tilting towards the grim faced sermon, let your father see it. In all, try not to see it at all. I hope nobody tracks me down and sues me for that statement and if they do, "Its not me oh!i did not write this oh!"
Oh well, time to get back to work, catch ya laters. Xoxo

She's back!

For weeks, i've started to blog but i haven't been able to, not for a want of things to tell because there's actually a lot of things that have happened in my life. I think the problem lies in not knowing where to begin....
I started work on my documentary although i've had to hit the pause button because i got a new job and i have to settle down and then, make the time for the documentary. I finally made peace in my heart with someone who affected me in ways that unfortunately led to who i was(Dark and Twisty). In making peace within, i've been released in ways that i thought unlikely. I've been studying God's word more, making it to church even during the weekdays, without being forced and my best friend goes along with me which is great.
I have been a busy bee, having fun with my close friends, having a crush, stealing kisses under the moonlight.... :) i've been living! and it's been the best time ever. Finding a God-given purpose for my life and working towards realizing it has been such an exhilarating ride and even though i have to take a break, the dream will never die. I've worried, thinking, what if someone else decides to do what i'm supposed to be doing while i have to get my act together, what then? Then i realised, God who gave me the vision will make it a reality. Besides, no one can do what i do the way i do!!!
Life is such a journey and i wonder what each day will bring and i try to embrace it, making the most of what i have. Like Bilbo said, " Its a dangerous business stepping out your door everyday." You never know what may sweep you off your feet and if you'll land on your feet or your back. I pray we all find the grace either ways to always trust God to be right there with us, ensuring that we're just fine.
So, lets just say.... SHE'S BACK! Expect details on the work front, the job description, the people and the everyday craziness, it'll be crazy to not expect a bit of drama, right? Xoxo.