The Sphinx

I've just been accused of showing as much emotion as the Sphinx does!
Really? Seriously?!

New Perspective

I need a new perspective, either that or i really need to use the bathroom! I am sick and absolutely tired, i need a change so bad i can taste it. Well, to be honest i dont know what i'm tasting because i have a feeling that if change took a bite off me bum i might not even feel it. I say i want change but yesterday i had change stare me in the face and challenge me but i backed down. Not in a cowardly manner because i gave it a shot but i finally realise that the change i need is on a level too complex for even i to comprehend. All i know is that i feel dissatisfied and even work isnt helping because i have a lot to do but i dont feel like doing anything. I just want my life to be different, i want to go somewhere new, meet new people, not have to worry about money or making my dreams a reality, i need change in a bad way. The worse part is right now, taking a vacation is totally out of the question, saving for my big project wont allow it. I didnt start the day intending to whine or complain but somehow this negativity crept up on me and i feel like if i write or talk about it i can shake it off. I try so hard to be perfect but i just cant, maybe the problem is i'm trying too hard. For one, its so frustrating when i try not to curse because its bad for my mind and mouth but then when i do curse it feels so good i shake my head at me and give myself the whatthehelliswrongwithyou look! This i guess is just one of those days and i swear if anyone i know tells me they just got a great new job, found the perfect guy or bought a new car i will not be held responsible for my actions for i will without a doubt put them out of my misery!!!
As you may have noticed, my last post mentioned being expectant about something, well, it didnt quite work out. Anyways, my fingers are still crossed but i admit they're beginning to cramp a bit so i'm asking God for the grace to not let go.
I could go on and on but if i dont get to work, being without a job will add itself to the list of things i can whine about! Xoxo.

My very own day!

Its my birthday!!! I woke up this morning, said a prayer, jumped out of bed went straight to the mirror and then i said out loud, "i'm 26" and i screamed. I cannot believe i'm this old, i mean, in four years i'll be thirty! thirty!!
Annyways, the big 26 feels great, notice how i've been proclaiming my age with no fear or hesitation? :)
One of the things i did before hand was ask God for a special gift today so fingers crossed i'll get it. Well, fingers crossed or not i will get it! Its a great day, i'm thankful to God for keeping me and being with me, he's been so wonderful to me and i appreciate and love him. It also never ceases to amaze me how much goodwill messages and calls i get, it always makes me feel special and loved.
So, here's to the best birthday ever!!! Cheers! Xoxo.

The Lists

I am absolutely in love with Labrinth!!! He has a beautiful voice, nicely chiselled features, dont know for certain but looks like he has a fab bod as well! I predict superstardom in no time and i'm almost always right about these things....
He's "let the sun shine" just makes me happy! There's nothing quite like music and i'm glad for each day i have with it. Its been there for me in so many ways, keeping me sane through the craziness. I am thankful for loads of things and i cant deny God has been awesome to me. I'll like to begin the month by saying i'm thankful for my life; crazy and wierd as stuff may get, i still appreciate it. I'm also thankful for my mum, family, friends, my job, my church,my good health, my new birthday shirt:-), the list goes on..
If you know you have much to be thankful to God for, dont hesitate to let him know. Have a blessed and wonderful new month.
PS: My birthday is on the 3rd and i have a wishlist as long as my arm and it includes a Harley Davidson, a red mini truck, a wonderful/ fantastic man, lots of money, and a lifetime's supply of Miss Dior Cherie and Still by Jlo. Please note that this list has not been written in the order of preference and it has barely scratched the surface!!! Feel free to contact me for more details:)) Laters, y'all xoxo.