Me

Dont let me get me!!!!

Let's all go Kieta!

Right now, Nigerians are united in their rage against a common enemy and his name is Sani Kieta!
It must be true that there are moments when some people spazz out and do crazy stuff and Kieta did just that in the Nigeria-Greece game today. It was absolutely insane, i would like to know what was going on in his head when he acted out. Perhaps, it could give us an insight as to why serial killers and crazies act the way they do! The lash out against the Greek Torodisis was totally and absolutely uncalled for and to a certain degree cost Nigeria the match! He started off trying to hit him, when his fist didn't connect, he used his leg! for what?! I guess Kieta will now be used in the dictionary as a word to represent insanity, instead of saying Micheal is crazy, you could say Micheal is Kieta! or you could say Micheal just went Kieta on me! :) Ok, perhaps i'm being too harsh but hey, lets tell it as it is. On that note, i rest my case before i lose it and go Kieta on y'all! Xoxo

Believe!

I swear, trying to live a christian life is the hardest thing ever! It can only be done with special grace from God himself. Try this, make up your mind and decide that today, you will not get mad, you will not lie, you will not think bad thoughts, you will not be impatient. Right, now step outside.... Was i right or was i right? Infact, if you live with other people, you dont even have to step outside! Temptation abounds everywhere! Its absolutely exhausting and trying to say the least. Its either your family, friends, co-workers or the random guy on the street, they all seem to be trying really hard to get under your skin. Despite the constant temptations, living a christian life can be done. Just dont look to anyone to set an example for you because, there's every possibility they will let you down. Instead, seek God, ask for his grace because, there's nothing like it. If you listen long enough to the word of God, you begin to realise the truth to it and the difference it can make in your life if you just believe. Well, i'm a believer but i also have my weaknesses, the point is not about being perfect, but working towards doing the right things and making a positive change in your world. So today, i want to remind us that God does love us and he knows when we're stressed out to the point of breaking. All we need to do is seek him, thats all he wants, for us to turn to him. Here's to loving God and living right! Xoxo.

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my life requires music....
my words may not speak the truth but my eyes will.
i love to laugh
i wont be able to say the words all the time, but i'll listen if you'll say them:)

Words will never be enough to express who i am but if you care, you'll figure me out for yourself

Scarlet's words.

Zsa zsa zsu!

Now for the million dollar question,(drumroll please...) does the zsa zsa zsu really matter? I mean, can a relationship be sustained without the zsa zsa zsu? What are the odds of a relatioinship working without it? Seriously, i need to know, when i imply that i need the zsa zsa zsu, some people look at me like i just sprouted horns and fangs! Is it really that unimportant? If it is,what distinguishes a particular special relationship from the one you have with other friends of the opposite sex? In the deciding factors for getting into a relationship with someone, does it not feature at all?! Of course, there are different qualities we all require our potential other(s) to posses. For some, it ranges from God-fearing to funny, for others, wealthy to tall, which is all good, but where does the zsa zsa zsu feature in all of this? Perhaps it's over-rated and those of us who seek it are vain, irresponsible, over-sexed, crazy, thrill seeking individuals! Afterall, what does this zsa zsa zsu really offer especially after it burns out? As it has all the potential of a burning fire and will eventually burn itself out! But please, take a moment, imagine that feeling, where you have all those butterflies swarming around in your belly, the insanely inappropriate smiles, the wild thumping of your heart, the crazy belief that everything is right with the world, the embarassing loss of words that hit you and cause you to stammer like a buffon, the inexplicable joy, the excitement, that feeling of wanting to hug yourself and shouting to the world, "I'm happy!" The zsa zsa zsu... there's no beating it and really, dont knock it until you've felt it! Dont get it twisted, i'm not saying the zsa zsa zsu is all there is to a relationship, i'm saying you definitely need to feel it! If you haven't felt it yet and you're supposedly in a relationship, get out of it quick! We all need to feel it, even if you end up marrying someone you don't get the feeling with, dont you want to be able to look back and say, "I felt it!" even if it was just once? Xoxo.

To settle or not to settle.

I just got to thinking, are some of us just picky or are we downright judgemental? Somewhere in the recess of our minds, do we feel that we are better than some people and by God, what where they even thinking when they decided to walk up to us and ask us out! Is that the case or are we just on the search for "The One" and we are not willing to settle for anything else. Are we searching for that chemistry that always seems to elude us or, is the issue a mixture of both elements, the search for the one with the perfect chemistry and the case of pride. Or, does it go beyond that, into the inexplicable icon we have created in our mind of whom the perfect one is, which ensures that anyone who comes around and doesn't meet those (sometimes ridiculous or perhaps, not-so-ridiculous)standards becomes a first class irritant? Whatever the case may be, there are too many lonely people out there and the truth is, they're lonely because they arent taking any chances or, giving anyone the chance to make an impression. So what if you go out with the short, balding, potbellied dude with the crooked teeth! :0 yeah, i know, i amaze myself too! Seriously, that may be too much to ask but we could start somewhere, right? Well, i had an opportunity to start somewhere, with a God-fearing hardworking guy and i didnt take it. You ask why, i'll tell, i didnt take it because he didn't speak well enough for me, he wasn't suave enough, he didnt appreeciate my art, music and there was no zsa zsa zuu!
I guess, for some of us there's just no settling, and if you cant settle, what next? What if my paragon of virtue/ Adonis doesn't exist? Am i doomed to spend the rest of my life all by me lonesome! Now, thats a scary thought but i guess the heart wants what the heart wants! Or maybe this is me trying to ease my conscience and prepare myself for the future. There's this saying that if you believe, it'll come to you. I guess i'll let you know.... Xoxo

He loves me!

I seriously feel the need to blog, but the thing is, i have nothing to write about. Really, i'm at my wits end, i cant think of anything to write other than the fact that i feel the need to write something, but there's nothing to write about. Not music, love, men, books, shows, i really cant think of anything. Ok, a thought just came to me now, i could write about God! Alright.... i could try writing about God, i dont know much but i know he loves me and he loves you too. That in itself is a wonder, considering all the mischief i get up to, but its the truth, he does love me and it doesnt get much better than that. He's the lord of hosts and he loves us. He created the earth, all the heavenly bodies and all those beautiful sunsets, and he loves us. He's the i am that i am and he loves us. He's this great big God with all the power you can imagine and he still loves us. How's that for being totally cool and generous with his love? Well, for all its worth, i love him right back and if you do, be sure to make sure he knows...... Xoxo.

Rebirth...

The reason behind my long absence was to take a journey through my life, taking the time to discover the me beneath me. In so doing, i've come out stronger, calmer and happier than i thought possible. There is no greater power than realising who you really are and for me, it was about time. The total amount of time it took for me to get to this place of Zen was two weeks. This does not mean the work is over, its only just beginning but the first major steps have been taken and they are the really important ones. The past two weeks started out dark and miserable but then, evolved into beauty, yup, just like a butterfly:) I had to let go of all the basic things, like my bed, favourite meals, friends and loved ones, books, work, the blog and most especially my music! It was hell at first, but then it got better and now, i'm absolutely glad i made the move and the sacrifices, like they say, "No pain no gain." It was a kind of spiritual purging where you spend your days meditating, listening to the word, praying, learning life lessons, working out and sharing life experiences. The whole experience has lifted my spirit and given me such strenght, hope and courage i didnt dare believe i could posses. It was a constant battle dealing with my negativity and i must admit i'm not quite there yet, but there's been a definite shift in the right direction.
I believe at some point in all our lives, we need to step back, look inwards and try to sort out all our emotional and physical baggage. The world around us gets downright depressing and irritating and in a bid to survive, we become strangers to ourselves, this is why we need to take me time. We need to rediscover ourselves, those things that form the core of who we really are.
Having said that, its great to be back!!! i imagine i was missed, well, if only a little! Xoxo