I loved you…
Not for your looks, you weren’t that good looking
Not for your brilliance, you weren’t that smart or you’d be with me
It just was.
I fell for the unknown
It was in the way you just were.
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Monday, September 26, 2011
About death... Always remembered, Josephine Nkem Masade nee Aginah and Ekene
The passing of a loved one is always a time for reflection, reminiscing on what was and could have been and almost always a time of regrets for the things we should have or shouldn't have said.
The dearest person I've lost to the cruel hands of death was my god mum,she was truly an amazing woman. She always had a kind word and was always teasing us and making jokes but knew when it was just right to bring the stick out :). She was the type of woman who always had a crowd at her home, she would literally pick people off the streets, take them home, feed them and get them jobs so they could survive and stay out of trouble,that's how loving she was and i will never forget her.
The death of a young person is usually harder to deal with, because it seems like such a waste to be cut short at such an early age. The bigger deal is, no one should have to bury their child, its just heartbreaking.I recently lost a relative, i wasn't close to him but i felt terrible because he was barely thirty and his dad died two years earlier leaving the responsibility of taking care of the family to his mum and him, being the first son. I cannot begin to imagine his mother's pain, its gut wrenching to even try to imagine.
I can only pray that God gives the family the grace to deal with this sad passing and the courage to persevere even when things seem at its bleakest.
And to you who has lost someone you love dearly, peace be with you, i reach out to you and embrace you with all the love i can give. The pain will not always be crippling, it'll pass and you'll always have those beautiful memories. Make the best of your life, give them reasons to smile down at you and go, "That's my darling." Xoxo
The dearest person I've lost to the cruel hands of death was my god mum,she was truly an amazing woman. She always had a kind word and was always teasing us and making jokes but knew when it was just right to bring the stick out :). She was the type of woman who always had a crowd at her home, she would literally pick people off the streets, take them home, feed them and get them jobs so they could survive and stay out of trouble,that's how loving she was and i will never forget her.
The death of a young person is usually harder to deal with, because it seems like such a waste to be cut short at such an early age. The bigger deal is, no one should have to bury their child, its just heartbreaking.I recently lost a relative, i wasn't close to him but i felt terrible because he was barely thirty and his dad died two years earlier leaving the responsibility of taking care of the family to his mum and him, being the first son. I cannot begin to imagine his mother's pain, its gut wrenching to even try to imagine.
I can only pray that God gives the family the grace to deal with this sad passing and the courage to persevere even when things seem at its bleakest.
And to you who has lost someone you love dearly, peace be with you, i reach out to you and embrace you with all the love i can give. The pain will not always be crippling, it'll pass and you'll always have those beautiful memories. Make the best of your life, give them reasons to smile down at you and go, "That's my darling." Xoxo
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
About religion
If i had been born into a Muslim family, i would have automatically become a Muslim, without giving thought to any other religion. If i had been born into a family of atheists, i probably would have been an atheist because i would be brought up to believe that there was no such thing as a supreme God. If after birth i was abandoned and then adopted by a Hindu family, i would have ended up practicing Hinduism with the rest of my family. My point is, there are certain defining factors that are thrust upon us by birth,like our religion, tribe, even our status in life as rich or poor until we are able to make our own decisions or circumstances change them for us.
My focus right now is religion, why do we settle for what we were born into? Is it because we trust that the right decisions were made for us or we just cant be bothered to truly find our faith. Does a thing as important as the God we pay allegiance to deserve to be left in the hands of just anyone? Shouldn't our faith be discovered by us?
For what its worth, this is something I've given a lot of thought to and over the years, I've come to realise that Christianity is the right path for me. At a point i decided to walk the path of atheism but i found that i believe within me that there's a higher power, he may not operate at the pace i want but he certainly operates.
I write this because I've come to a place of great understanding and peace which hasn't always existed for me. I was a christian back then, but the depth of peace and understanding i have now was never there until i finally chose Jesus. I didn't choose him because my family chose him for me but this time i did it for me.
Have you truly looked inward and decided the right path for you, not based on the opinions of others but the conviction you feel in your heart?
If you haven't, maybe it's time you did.... Xoxo
My focus right now is religion, why do we settle for what we were born into? Is it because we trust that the right decisions were made for us or we just cant be bothered to truly find our faith. Does a thing as important as the God we pay allegiance to deserve to be left in the hands of just anyone? Shouldn't our faith be discovered by us?
For what its worth, this is something I've given a lot of thought to and over the years, I've come to realise that Christianity is the right path for me. At a point i decided to walk the path of atheism but i found that i believe within me that there's a higher power, he may not operate at the pace i want but he certainly operates.
I write this because I've come to a place of great understanding and peace which hasn't always existed for me. I was a christian back then, but the depth of peace and understanding i have now was never there until i finally chose Jesus. I didn't choose him because my family chose him for me but this time i did it for me.
Have you truly looked inward and decided the right path for you, not based on the opinions of others but the conviction you feel in your heart?
If you haven't, maybe it's time you did.... Xoxo
Monday, September 5, 2011
The Dress
I’m at a loss, I want to write about something that happened over the weekend with my friend but can’t help thinking, it’s about marriage and writing it will make it seem like I’m fixated on the whole marriage thing. Well, at the cost of seeming like a man hunter out to marry the next man who so much as looks at me, here goes…
She’s making my wedding dress, the one I’ve always dreamed of wearing, I designed it and even drew it ( I can’t draw to save my life but I did a pretty good drawing of this dress) and that’s the dress she’s going to make for her own wedding! Give me a gun now please!!! I have my hand over my face because I feel like such a petty cat but it does grate a little to know that the dress I always wanted and thought would be uniquely mine has been taken by someone else without my permission no less!! Here I go again being the petty cat (hand over my face).
I got to thinking, and I wondered, is it such a big deal that she’s going to be wearing my dress? Shouldn’t I be pleased she thought my design was good enough for her to make for her own wedding? All these are reasonable I believe, but it doesn’t change the fact that she took something that I was very passionate about and i feel betrayed. It’s pretty much like your friend stealing your man or your friend going to pay for the car you wanted despite knowing how badly you wanted it.
I guess there’ll always be times when people we care about will hurt our feelings; the best way to handle it is to let it go and do better for yourself. For instance, I’ve decided to design an even more fabulous dress for myself and the thought of that makes me happy. So, its straight to the drawing board for me. Xoxo
She’s making my wedding dress, the one I’ve always dreamed of wearing, I designed it and even drew it ( I can’t draw to save my life but I did a pretty good drawing of this dress) and that’s the dress she’s going to make for her own wedding! Give me a gun now please!!! I have my hand over my face because I feel like such a petty cat but it does grate a little to know that the dress I always wanted and thought would be uniquely mine has been taken by someone else without my permission no less!! Here I go again being the petty cat (hand over my face).
I got to thinking, and I wondered, is it such a big deal that she’s going to be wearing my dress? Shouldn’t I be pleased she thought my design was good enough for her to make for her own wedding? All these are reasonable I believe, but it doesn’t change the fact that she took something that I was very passionate about and i feel betrayed. It’s pretty much like your friend stealing your man or your friend going to pay for the car you wanted despite knowing how badly you wanted it.
I guess there’ll always be times when people we care about will hurt our feelings; the best way to handle it is to let it go and do better for yourself. For instance, I’ve decided to design an even more fabulous dress for myself and the thought of that makes me happy. So, its straight to the drawing board for me. Xoxo
Friday, September 2, 2011
When you give me love…..
Right now, I’m listening to Katie Melua’s – No fear of Heights, and it’s the most beautiful song ever, I can’t get over it and I don’t want to. I’ve got it on replay and I’ve also decided that it’s going to be the first song my husband and I dance to on our wedding day! Any man who gets me to walk down the aisle with him totally deserves to have this amazing song dedicated to him.
On the wedding note, I have three of my best girls getting married between December and January, I am very happy for them but it also throws into sharp relief the fact that I am very single, a position my mother believes I’m determined to hold on to till she dies just to spite her for “training” me with knocks on the head while I was growing up:). On the contrary, I am more than willing to relinquish my hold on that title but for some reason I haven’t met anyone who I want to wake up next to for the rest of my life, they either have too much teeth or none at all:).
Seriously though, when I think about it, I realize that I could be married by now with maybe a kid or two but I’ve been waiting for someone who gives me love and I’ll have no fear of falling. Is that naive? Does such a thing exist? Have we been deceived by all those years of reading Mills & Boon into believing there’s a guy out there that will make us swoon and sigh with love? Does love really exist? I’m not asking about lust or sex but the real deal, that selfless giving that makes you sacrifice all you have and all you are?
I would really love to hear from a couple who have those feelings for one another so it’ll give those of us who have been holding out for it the nerve to keep going. How long can I keep waiting for it though? And what if it doesn’t exist? Dare I even begin to consider such a thing after all the time spent waiting?
I don’t have all the answers though but if there’s one thing I know for sure, it’s that with God all things are possible. So I guess he’s the hope I have that one day I’ll meet someone who makes the wait worth it
Three weddings! The perfect reasons to splurge on shoes without feeling guilty! Yay! Bring me those weddings and really cute men, lol ;) xoxox
On the wedding note, I have three of my best girls getting married between December and January, I am very happy for them but it also throws into sharp relief the fact that I am very single, a position my mother believes I’m determined to hold on to till she dies just to spite her for “training” me with knocks on the head while I was growing up:). On the contrary, I am more than willing to relinquish my hold on that title but for some reason I haven’t met anyone who I want to wake up next to for the rest of my life, they either have too much teeth or none at all:).
Seriously though, when I think about it, I realize that I could be married by now with maybe a kid or two but I’ve been waiting for someone who gives me love and I’ll have no fear of falling. Is that naive? Does such a thing exist? Have we been deceived by all those years of reading Mills & Boon into believing there’s a guy out there that will make us swoon and sigh with love? Does love really exist? I’m not asking about lust or sex but the real deal, that selfless giving that makes you sacrifice all you have and all you are?
I would really love to hear from a couple who have those feelings for one another so it’ll give those of us who have been holding out for it the nerve to keep going. How long can I keep waiting for it though? And what if it doesn’t exist? Dare I even begin to consider such a thing after all the time spent waiting?
I don’t have all the answers though but if there’s one thing I know for sure, it’s that with God all things are possible. So I guess he’s the hope I have that one day I’ll meet someone who makes the wait worth it
Three weddings! The perfect reasons to splurge on shoes without feeling guilty! Yay! Bring me those weddings and really cute men, lol ;) xoxox
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