Super Woman aka “The Rock”

There are moments in life that just really put a lot of things in perspective; especially as regards the future. Most times we don’t know what we want but it certainly helps if you know exactly what you don’t want. At least that way, you can make a start in any direction other than that you don’t want.
So, you might ask, what brought about my epiphany? A generator, a medium sized generator that refused to start! Yesterday evening after turning fuel into the gen (a chore I certainly don’t relish), I tried turning it on but it wouldn’t start so I checked the oil and found it was really dirty so I decide to pour out the dirty oil and replace it. After changing the oil, I pull on the starter but then the rope cut and in that moment I felt like screaming.
The horrible fact was we hadn’t had light in three days because the transformer had a problem and we had all sorts of things from soups to chicken and all in the freezer that needed preservation. In order words, the bloody gen had to come on and it was 7pm on a Sunday! Then the hunt began, I walked the length and breadth of my area trying to find anyone who could fix the gen. The roads were messed up because of the rains so I had to be very careful, dodging cars, bikes, strange looking men and gutters!
It was during my search that I realized how much I hated what I was doing, how many times have I had to fix things on my own, I am an electrician, a handyman and all you can think of on the home front because there’s no man around to help handle those sort of things. It made me appreciate my mum more for much as I get to do these things she’s been doing them for longer. I think awards should be given to single parents and for what it’s worth my Ma should be first in line!
She is a rock, she’s superwoman, she’s my mentor but then, I realize I’m not as strong as she is. I don’t want to have to deal with those sorts of issues, call me old fashioned but I want a man around who can handle things and leave me to take care of him and my babies. I’ve been known to be a rock and I’ve spent the better part of my life trying to prove that I don’t need anyone else and it took a generator breaking down to make me want to relinquish all hold on rockmanship!
I guess what I’m trying to say is, I know without a doubt that I don’t want to spend my life alone pretending to be a rock. We all need someone to share our lives with, the good and bad times. After all, what’s the point of a story if you have no one to tell it to? Well, I didn’t find anyone to repair the gen that night but someone promised to come over the next morning so I guess that settled that.
Need I add that I have begun fervent prayers for a gentle, kind, handsome, hardworking, churchgoing (true believer) man! It seems like a lot but with God all things are possible:) Laters y'all, xoxo…